If you've been reading this blog for awhile, well, for one thing, you're a saint. But aside from that you may remember a post I wrote awhile ago about the pants that made me cry. If you haven't the gist is this: I bought a pair of parachute pants in India that I thought were the coolest things ever. Then I wore them all the time. Then a friend laughed in my face and told me I looked like Mr. T. Then I cried because my self esteem
Fast forward to a couple weeks before my first day of grad school. I decided I needed a new outfit for the first day of classes because, really, it doesn't actually count as the start of a new chapter in your life if you don't have a new outfit. So I'm perusing H&M and my eyes land on these pants. So soft. So comfy. So exactly like the pants that made my self confidence melt into a pathetic puddle on a dorm room floor just a few years prior. Plus they were leopard print which I vowed to never wear again after a 7th grade photo day catastrophe.
But there wouldn't be any harm in just trying them on... right? Bad idea. It was love at first sight. They felt like pajamas and sat on my waist in just the right position so that I could devour two Chipotle burritos and/ or be five months pregnant and no one would know.
But the voice of fear was telling me not to. "You'll get laughed at" it said. "None of the other
kids grad students will take you seriously." I almost listened.
But then I realized... If I'm going to be a therapist then these are the exact voices I'm going to be helping people to say no to. The voices that whisper lies about your worth. The voices that say "what people think about you is far more important than what you think about yourself and than what God thinks about you." So I made a conscious decision to be brave, shut those voices out, and buy the pants. I wore them with confidence on my first day, and during my last class I had a girl from Singapore tell me, "I love your pants! They are all the rage in East Asia right now." Point, set, match.
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Top & Pants: H&M//Necklace: Stella & Dot//Sunglasses: Ruche ( here!) Shoes: Marshalls
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